I feel bad about myself.
I don't know exactly why, but I guess it's something about me not being good enough and not having the motivation to improve--I suppose, that lack of motivation stems from a lack of hope. I don't think I'll be appreciated. I suppose it's just me, or my upbringing, or the people around me. I want to learn, to improve, but maybe it's too late to learn. If it's not, perhaps it's too late for me to aim for something great. I find it sad.